What 2025 Taught Me About Remembering Who I Am

2025 wasn’t the year I changed my life.
It was the year I remembered it.

This was not dramatic. This was slow, internal. It was realizing how much had changed over the last year.

This was a year of coming back to my truth.
Of reprogramming beliefs I didn’t choose.
Of getting to know myself deeply—and finally taking care of myself without needing an external reason.

What I stopped forcing

I stopped forcing myself to perform.

I started the year wanting to grow my business, but I hadn’t changed the identity I was operating from yet. I wanted momentum, results, proof. I was still moving from action, action, action—without rest, without space.

I posted 30 products in 30 days.
I told myself I had it under control.
Until I realized I didn’t.

Everything I had been working toward came to a sudden halt. I had lost weight, my blog and business were getting more traffic. On the outside, it looked like progress. On the inside, I could barely get out of bed.

I was still working full time in insurance, and that took every ounce of energy I had. I could barely cook for myself, let alone create or think long-term. And instead of slowing down, I did what I had always done when something felt off.I tried to fix myself. So I enrolled in another course. And guess what….I could’t finish it. And then I beat myself up for that too.

As my body was forced to slow down, something finally shifted. I could hear my intuition again. She speaks quietly initially. But if you don’t listen she will eventually get louder and louder until you’re forced to listen because you are stuck in bed.

Because I didn’t have the energy to create, I started reading books and doing guided meditations to fall asleep. This is when I started to realize I needed to change my identity.

It wasn’t a big ah-ha moment, it was little lightbulb moments here and there that slowly starting connecting to one another in my head.

The real shift

I stopped forcing myself to operate from a results-driven, masculine mode. I started asking different questions:

What do I need right now?
What do I actually want to do in this moment?
How would I respond here if I trusted myself?

At first, even that had a layer of performance. I was still trying to be someone I thought I wasn’t yet. Still trying to earn permission.

Until I realized something that changed everything:

I am all the things I think I am not. I had just forgotten.

I wasn’t meant to become someone new, I was meant to remember who I already was.

That’s when the pressure lifted. Not all at once—but just enough to breathe again.

Releasing the rules I never agreed to

This showed up most clearly in how I thought about money.

I had a picture in my mind of who a “millionaire” is—what she looks like, where she lives, who she spends time with. And every time I compared myself to that image, my mind reinforced the same story:

You’re not there yet. You don’t qualify.

So I removed the requirement.

If I want to be a millionaire, I don’t need to become someone else first. I don’t need to look different, live somewhere else, or have different friends. I don’t need to earn it by suffering. I just get to be her—now.

And from that place, the way I move, rest, choose, and create naturally changes.

What I’m carrying forward

2025 taught me that clarity doesn’t come from forcing answers. It comes from listening long enough to hear what’s true.

It taught me that taking care of myself isn’t a pause from my life—it’s how I stay connected to it.

And it reminded me that growth doesn’t always look like more. Sometimes it looks like remembering, like letting go.

I’m not carrying resolutions into the next year.
I’m carrying what I remembered. And that is all I need.

If you’re in your own year of remembering

If any part of this year felt familiar to you, you don’t need to rush to do anything with it.

You don’t need a new plan. You don’t need to reinvent yourself. And you don’t need to force clarity.

Instead, you might start here:

• Notice what you’ve been forcing.
  Not to judge it—just to name it. Where are you pushing because you think you should, not because it feels true?
• Listen for what’s asking to soften.
  Rest, boundaries, slower decisions, fewer expectations. Often, what we need is quieter than what we’re chasing.
• Question the identities you’re performing.
  Ask yourself: Who am I trying to be right now? And who am I underneath that?
• Release the timeline.
  You don’t need to look the part or have the proof yet. You’re allowed to embody the version of you you’re becoming before the external evidence shows up.
• Treat remembering as enough.
  Not everything meaningful needs to be productive. Some seasons exist simply to bring you back to yourself.

You’re allowed to move at the pace your nervous system can trust.
You’re allowed to change your mind.
And you’re allowed to build a life—from clarity instead of pressure.

If this year taught you anything, let it be this:

You don’t need to become someone new.
You need space to remember who you already are.